Everyone’s Waiting… Breathe Me…

Today started out as one of those horrible, no good, very bad days (as Alexander says… have you read that book? Good book).  When you get so caught up in the moment… so upset that you think the whole world is out to get you… when you want to start cursing, blaming, road raging, eating Reese’s peanut butter eggs (No? That’s just me?), etc… what do you do to calm yourself down? No really, that is a question I’m asking my spiritual friends and readers. The whole morning I kept saying to myself… “In the grand scheme of things, this experience is so small and doesn’t even matter.” When that didn’t help, I thought “You’ve learned so much about spirituality recently… you’re better than this… don’t get upset… I know you’re driving a car right now, but meditate… breathe… DO SOMETHING!” I failed miserably. I was incredibly upset and I was miserable to be around I’m sure.

To make a long story that I haven’t even told you short, the day gradually got better. When I was finally able to sit down and breathe, the final scene of the series finale of Six Feet Under (titled “Everyone’s Waiting”) popped into my head. To this day it is my all-time favorite show. I miss it. There hasn’t been anything like it since. Some people thought it was morbid… but I was moved and inspired with every episode. I remember crying watching the final six minutes and rewinding it over and over again. So this afternoon I pulled it up on YouTube. The song playing in this final scene is Breathe Me by Sia. My day is so much better now.

Since I’m not a word person (I usually don’t even pay attention to words in music) I decided to check out the lyrics.

Breathe Me

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there’s no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe meOuch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I’ve lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I’m needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

So what am I talking about? I have no clue. But I know this song and the scene popped into my head and I feel so much better. 

But seriously, what do you guys do when you have days like this?

Peace!

About Patrick Keller

Patrick Keller is an educator, blogger, and the host of the Big Séance Podcast, which is a place for paranerds to have an open discussion on all things paranormal, but specifically topics like ghosts and hauntings, paranormal research, spirit communication, psychics and mediums, and life after death. He’s the founder of the now inactive Missouri Spirit Seekers and has spent a lot of time experimenting with spirit communication tools and techniques, such as EVP. Patrick also has a passion for spending hours at a time in cemeteries and loves cemetery photography. Visit BigSeance.com! View all posts by Patrick Keller

6 responses to “Everyone’s Waiting… Breathe Me…

  • Maria Laing

    Since I read your entry a while ago, I have been thinking/feeling about it. Perhaps in the ” grand scheme of things” every emotion really does matter because we have the potential to learn from emotion. There is ego, that is sure….but even ego has something to teach us….perhaps about our vulnerability, our limitations……..For me, when steeped in feeling, in emotion, I ask what is the most basic feeling I am experiencing? Very often it is fear…..and it is the child in me….maybe the limbic system, or the amygdala of the brain, that is reacting….then what I do is just breathe…..long on the exhalation. I say to myself that this shall pass. When I can, I lie down and continue the breathing. The words of the song you posted: hold me, wrap me up….breathe me….remind me of something I had written in my journal a while back…..I wrote that I wanted life to hold me. Similar emotion I think…of the child, fear of abandonement, sense of vulnerability, fear of not having what one needs. There is a sense of surrender, a sense of being at one’s limits, of being “used up”, I think, or of wanting to be protected, to be relieved from pain. I wish I had more to offer you. I am 65 and still I find all these emotions rising in me…..but interestingly, not so much the anger….more frustration, vulnerability, saddness, feelings of inadequacy. I wish you well. Maybe you will have time this weekend to recharge your battery, so to speak! One tidbit, an after thought:….I have read a book written by Rick Hanson: Buddha’s Brain, the practical neuroscience of happiness, love, & wisdom. It is written with Richard Mendius, MD. Rick Hanson, Ph.D. is a neuropsychologist and meditation teacher. He says that our brains have a built-in “negativity bias”….which “fosters or intensifies other unpleasant emotions, such as anger, sorrow, depression, guilt, and shame. It highlights past losses and failures, it downplays present abilities, and it exaggerates future obstacles. Consequently, the mind continually tends to render unfair verdicts about a person’s character, conduct, and possibilities. The weight of those judgements can really wear you down.” page 42. Perhaps we need compassion for ourselves, as well as others. Since I am female, I often wonder if testosterone might also play into reactions in the male of the species, and how that might influence responses. Anyway….blessings and peace!

    • Patrick

      Thank you, Maria. I always appreciate your thoughts and wisdom. My emotions today definitely came from a place of fear. Many times I can easily be thrown off my game when my routine is altered against my will. The events of today will alter my comfortable routine for a week or more. As of right now, since I’m able to look back on it more calmly, I’m embarrassed that it caused me to have such a bad day… and a whole blog topic. 🙂

  • LinT

    What a Beautiful song for your synchronistic moment Patrick 🙂

  • bajamerson

    Okay, gotta just mention that I love that kid’s book!

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